I’m here to help
By me “I’m”; I mean my spirit. By “here”; I mean on Earth.
I first sat with Ayahuasca in July of 2021. Over 4 ceremonies in four consecutive nights I saw what I had become; merged my soul; healed my heart; and found out what I am called to do.
I am here to help.
At first I was confused as to how or in what capacity I was supposed to carry out my purpose but it is slowly beginning to come together.
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That is how Ayahuasca works. I believe people think when one has a plant medicine experience they have some mind shattering hallucination that rattles them into a new frame of thinking; but that is not how it works at all.
In my experience Ayahuasca strips away the ego; the thick skin of pain, fear, and denial one has formed over their life and leaves them with a fresh second skin and eyes wide open; seeing clearly for the first time since they were a child. It is a cleaning and a rebirth. You can’t “break” it. It never stops working.
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At first I felt I was called to help people like me who are plagued with depression and addiction. I was going to help people through similar plant medicine experiences as I had. “To find my brothers and sisters in the dark depths and bring them up to the light.”
Then I began connecting spiritually and processing trauma through meditation, breath work, yoga, and nature and realized there are several paths to wholeness; why not try them all? Especially ones that can become daily practice.
Through these I discovered I am an empathic creative that had been programmed to deny my true nature in order to “make a living” and be “successful”. This was a major factor in becoming the person I had become … before my rebirth.
I realized there must be so many people like me who suffer because they are right brained people in a left brained society and need to set their creative spirit free to be happy. As a matter of fact; everyone has a right hemisphere of their brain giving them some capacity for compassion and an eye for the sublime.
What a world we will have when everyone finds their natural balance and can think and feel equitably; experience joy abundantly and pain of life’s mystery appropriately.
What a world it will be.
I am here to help.
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The colors of the rainbow; so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shaking hands; saying how do you do
They're really saying: I love you
I hear babies cry; I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll ever know
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world
-George David Weiss & Robert Thiele
